I have one more article in the singles series but will probably publish it next year. It’s used up a lot of energy and research time. In the mean time…..
So excited for 2017!
I am going to be busier than ever. I am starting a business in Sweden which will be web based so I can circumnavigate the world and not be tied down anywhere.
I am going to finish writing my first book. I sent a book proposal in the summer to several agents who said DENY, DENY, DENY. After I resisted the urge to start raiding the fridge at night, I said, “Well, I will self-publish it. Thank you very much.”
After ALL the angst and suffering I went through writing that proposal. I was so sure they would publish it.
I will also start a speaking career in 2017. Have no clue how people start speaking.
In March 2013, I got a message from God that was clearly talking about my career. Something like He was about to do something new, huge and life changing. I won’t get into the intricate details. I however over think everything and I’m like an FBI agent investigating angles, so that’s what I have been doing since then. Acting like I am deciphering morse code from God. Instead of just resting and chilling. In April this year a visiting pastor repeated the same message and basically told me to chill and trust in God. And He knew where I was. And he deliberately sent me here. Omg.
First I tried to figure out how this huge thing would come into play.
Next, I was like when would it happen?
Before I came to Sweden my life was cushy with good jobs and easy money. The endless supply was cut off as soon as I landed here. Like an amputation with a crude instrument. CUT OFF. I experienced hardship I had previously never even dreamt about.
So my thing was like, “Really God, my circumstances are totally different from what you said.”
For the longest time I really doubted this change would even happen.
I listen to Rick Warren a lot. He talked about when he was younger he would try and figure out where a miracle would come from. And he would spend time calculating how God could come through for him and how or which vehicle he would use. And his guess would always be wrong.
This was so me.
Over time, Rick learnt God would never use his guess because God wanted Rick to understand that he was not God and he could not do what God does.
So I stopped trying to figure out how this grand plan would come together.
Sarah Jakes Roberts has an anointing for messages that talk about moving to your destiny. There’s lots of them. When Sarah speaks I wonder if she is speaking to just me in a closed door meeting.
Something about her messages tells me she has had this experience or is aware of the journey.
Anyway after listening to tonnes of sermons from these two as well as from Bishop TD Jakes, I have decided not to stress anymore about what will happen. I won’t try to guess what God will do or when He will do it, instead I will fully trust His word. I will continue to believe in Him despite my surroundings coz it is not in His character to lie. God does not talk incessantly and His words never return to heaven void.
I feel so light since I decided to totally surrender this part to God. I will just do my VERY best and not worry about the rest. The battle is the Lord’s after all.
I also figured out something the other day. God is the one who orchestrated my cushy and favored life pre-Sweden. I was easily promoted at work, did well in school, always dated good (and hot) men who adored me. I was spoilt and attributed my luck to me. Boy, was I wrong. God had a hand in it and when my life will eclipse my previously privileged existence I will give Him all the glory. I did not do squat.
By the way I’m so grateful that I discovered writing. I really love, love it. I have never been more passionate about anything before, ever. I mean and I was so good at HR. But this writing is something else. So I am so grateful for this.
I want to go to a conference in Missouri in October 2017. It’s a women’s conference and they will have many amazing speakers including Priscilla Shirer there. Too excited.
I am a social butterfly but during the coming year I feel I really need to be around people who support my efforts (even if they don’t get them) do not feel insecure because of them or tell me to go on a different path because that would make them more comfortable.
This will be the difficult part about 2017, because my friends are not evil people who have bad habits or are bad influences but becoming the best version of me requires people who are supportive, positive and not interested in how my life makes THEM look.
I am naturally a loner, so I will easily nix relationships… if your friendship will in any way hinder, delay, or discourage me from achieving all I want to then you gots to go. My desire to be whatever God wants me to be is greater than the desire to spend time with friends who don’t contribute an iota to reaching my destiny. Be warned. I’m bringing my A game and if you can’t keep up, I am leaving you behind.
I will continue loving and seeking God next year. I am so passionate about this relationship. It trumps my writing!! Actually it trumps everything. God is numero uno in my life.
I guess people who knew me prior to me becoming serious with God don’t probably get the new me. Or probably imagine I’ve grown visible horns on my head. I get it. I’m still me but a better version. Giving God control of your life is hands down the best thing you WILL ever do.
Have a great year. I wish you all the best and thanks for being on the journey of this “nobody enroute to being somebody” Nobody in quotes. I am a somebody, you just can’t see it yet. LOL!
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